Sorry it’s been a while. For a variety of personal reasons, I’ve been taking a bit of a break from “author” activities for a while. Not just writing, but also in areas of promotion. I’ve been easing back into promotional activities recently, posting a little more on some of my social media outlets, but my writing for all intents and purposes has been holding at a standstill.
Some of the more personal reasons I’ve been putting my writing life on hold I won’t go into. As far as some of the more professional reasons, let’s just say I’ve been in somewhat of a “re-evaluation” mode. I wouldn’t call it “soul searching” so much as just trying to figure out my place in the world of writing erotica.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m very satisfied, even proud in a way, with the stories I have out so far. It’s just that the results from releasing these stories have been…let’s just say… less than what I was expecting. I’ve been told by my publisher that I’ve actually been doing very well for such a new author, and I’m not saying I don’t believe her. And I’m not saying I’m not making any money from my books…I am… but with 16 ebooks out total at this point, I can’t help but feel the financial results should be a little more lucrative than they are.
It certainly doesn’t help that Amazon won’t carry most of my books. In fact, dealing with Amazon is quite demoralizing period. It’s also a little frustrating seeing author after author being kicked in the balls by Amazon for one reason or another, yet they still try to play the game and try to work around Amazon’s bullshit, thinking that Amazon is the only way to be successful, without seeming to realize that in doing so they become part of the problem rather than part of the solution.
Making probably one of the worst mistakes possible for an author, I can’t seem to help but compare myself to other authors also. It’s been said almost constantly that the best promotion for your books is to keep writing more books, and I do believe that’s true. However, I see a myriad of erotica authors on some of my social networks almost bragging in a way that they are pumping out a short story a week, basically becoming an erotica ebook “factory” in a way. Even if I was capable of writing that way, I don’t think I would ever want to. If I was going to do “factory” work, I’d just as soon do it in an actual factory. To me, it seems to defeat one of the main purposes of being an author in the first place.
Anyway, that’s sort of where I’m at right now. I realize I have a bit of a fan base out there, and I do appreciate that, and sorry if I’m letting them down in some way. I realize there are some who are waiting for my next installment of the Angel Falls series, as well as some of the other projects which I have floating around in my head. I’m certainly not out of ideas… but a little short these days on ambition, and trying to figure out my place in all this.
All I can say at this point is, I will try to make it worth the wait.